Afraid of Freedom?

A great email from Paul Lowe to his list today.

Consider – you could have anything you want, anytime you want it. Pleasant thought? Look again.
Consider that… you my have a place in you that is afraid to have everything you what – in case, then, there is nothing to look forward to - ‘nothing to live for.’ Don’t just dismiss it, check it out: nothing to look forward to – one way or the other.  Read more »

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Fear

by Jamie Catto

In the past months and years I’ve made millions of decisions based on fear, based on preventing something I don’t want from happening. The prospect of encountering these things I fear fills me with so much resistance and dread that I can spend hours turning them over and over in my mind, rehearsing scenarios and imagined conversations, trying to impose some control on the approaching chaos.

I’m now noticing that although these things that I fear are convincingly scary on approach, they are usually much emptier upon arrival. i’m driving towards mirages that look so scary as they’re getting nearer, growing bigger and bigger, but then, when i actually reach hem, i pass straight through. The experience of the thing I’ve been so scared of is totally different from my imagined version. I can handle much more than my mind thinks I can. So when it finally arrives it’s often like, oh…is that it? Read more »

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Lies, anger, hurt and heart opening

Over the past days I’ve been on quite a journey. I’m endlessly grateful for and deeply humbled by my experiences. I touched upon something very deep in my core, and got to see and feel the addiction and identification with it, the attachment to this story, the power of thoughts and beliefs, the roots of war. It’s humbling and amazing to learn once again how deep and far some triggers can go. It feels like I can suddenly see my life story! What a blessing and relief to see.

Deep down I totally believed that “I was lied to”. A powerful source that fuelled behaviour as a victim, and reacting righteously angry in hurt and defence. Although this is certainly not all I am, I came to see this deep underlying survival pattern that has been driving most of my actions and thinking in subtle and sometimes quite obvious ways. Read more »

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Haiti in my heart

Looking at what’s been happening in the world the past weeks I came to see once again the insignificance and yet the preciousness of a single life, including mine.

It’s such an easy thing to feel touched by what I read in the newspapers, then make a donation, write a few emails to friends encouraging them to do so too, and yet turn away without really taking it in – all the way.

I have spent hours watching, reading and researching about the Haiti earthquake. Then, I came across this article from Katie Couric “The Human Face of Haitian Tragedy” on the Huffington Post. Read more »

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Unlimited!

Excerpt from an email from Paul Lowe to his list today.

We have been programmed to believe that once we have attained our goals we will be happy. We continue to believe in that belief even though there is no proof that it is so. To the contrary in fact. But we do not want to admit this, otherwise, we are not in control — plus, what is there to live for! This is the way it is.

We do not feel fulfilled with anything on the outside because — they do not bring us what we really would like — the feeling of safety, security, and predictability. Even although no one we know feels safe and secure we continue to believe it is possible. The reason we do not feel safe and secure is because these states do not exist in this dimension with our present level of consciousness. Nothing is safe, nothing is secure and nothing is predictable. That is the way this dimension is. And we have designed it that way.  Read more »

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